I got kicked out?!

*sniffle* S'up? It's my fellow bloggers again... You know the drill... Anywho...

I am so frustrated with life... First I say that I am holding off on a relationship until college and now I might end up breaking that poor boy's heart. So, one of my best friends has become very close to me and is now saying that he loves me... I don't know what to do anymore... I want to be friends with him but he won't slow down. He wants a relationship with someone who will marry him. I want to hang out and be friends and no one asks steve about what he wants... <.< Steve is my imaginary friend... he likes to tease me and such... Haven't seen him since I was at least 12. He went poof...

On a whole different scale I am sad today as I just got in a fight with my sister, whom is my best friend. I went and stayed at her house today and yesterday and most of the time all she did when she was back from work was play World Of Warcraft with her hubby... So... meh... I don't really want to go into details at the moment... but I got locked out of her house for going to the park without telling her for 15-20 minutes and then yelling at her for treating me like a baby... I am pretty dumb at this point....

Ack!!! I got contacts for the first time yesterday!!! I working on getting adjusted and everything... So, that's going well...

That's all for today, Don't let the heartless get you.
~Roxas Embers

Ack!

Common Face of Stress

Mood: Tired/frustrated/hungry

Sup, my fellow bloggers? If you are reading this then you obviously have no life or are extremely bored. I haven't posted for a month now and I feel that I have gotten lost in my stressful life.

I bought at least 30-40 dollars worth of fireworks and now I am longing to buy more... is that a bad thing? Everytime I see a closed firework shop I want to buy some but as it is I don't have enough money to buy more... I'm a sad Panda T.T

Anyway so I've actually begun to get commisions for my spray paint art which is nice as well as the fact that one of the people is helping me to start selling my art work at a local shop. So that makes it even better.

As for my job.... I think I forgot to update everyone that I am no longer working in the deli/bakery... I know that I said I liked it there and that I wouldn't trade it for anything... Well, I worked in it for all of one.... one freaking day... T.T They kicked me out!!!!!! I talked to my boss and he decided to make me a cashier. I was stressed out at first but I kinda like it now. working in a small town is pretty nice as after working for a week, everyone knows who you are. I never though of myself as a people person... only now I am finding that I enjoy the smiles and talking to everyone without seeming stupid.

Now.............................. Love life................. C O M P L I C A T E D!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What's wrong with me?!?!?!!?!?!?!?! I get out of a bad relationship and I vowed never to do it to myself again... At least not until college... I'm just bound and determined to shatter my heart into pieces and become a heartless.... Oh wait!!! I DON'T HAVE A HEART!!!!! I guess that helps a bit.... only if I have no heart then why do I feel so much pain? So many questions, and yet not one single answer for why nobodies can bleed too. I don't know what to do but I don't want to just break his heart...

AM I NOT ALLOWED TO SAVE THE WORLD?!?!?!?!?! never? What if I try to do it? Will I be ripped into a million pieces? Maybe...

Oh and I just lost the game!!!!! HAHA!!! *sigh* Is it okay to cover my pain with smiles? With jokes and hides all of my other emotions inside?

Roxas Embers <----------------- Like my new screen Name? I combined my name and my cosplay name together!!! Woo Hoo!!!!

Well, ta ta for now my fellow nobodies and heartless. ^_^