Oh my gosh!!! My cat just had 3 kittens today!!! I was totally happy until my dad started being a jerk about it... ;sadface;
Maybe I'm not a leader... Maybe I'm just some dumb moron who thinks that they are totally awesome. Like on american idol how they tell them "Uhhh... you suck! go away!!"... What if I'm just a failure? Awww... it doesn't matter... I found recently that I either talk too little or I talk way too much... I say some pretty retarded stuff and I don't even have a job... I know, I'm wallowing in self-pity...
I always think to myself "Sorry that I such a chubby face, sorry that I play too many video games, sorry that I'm such an idiot, I'm sorry for trying to get a life, I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect Daughter, Sorry that I want to move out of the house, Sorry that everything I do is a mistake. I am sorry for just being me!!!
That aside here is something to ponder. If a person has short term memory loss then will they remember that they have short term memory loss?
~Ember
Monday, March 30, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Spiking the Ball into Your Face
Oh no!!!! In a recent survey we found that the moon is actually made up of dead martians that early cavemen destroyed. 0.0 Poor Aliens....
So... I am part of this one church group that has the adult women play volleyball every Wednesday(WTF?!?! is that how it is spelled? stupid spell check...). Well, I have been enjoying playing with them because unlike the kids my age the ladies just play for fun and not who wins or loses. Guess what just happened? Yeah, that's right... I got kicked off because they don't want 18 yr old who are still in high school to play.
Ouch... Who did I spike in the face for them to get pissed off like this? Anyway, we went and checked the rules and it is in there that I am not allowed to play with the adults... There goes my activity... This always happens to me though... Like, I will just get comfortable doing something and then it gets taken away from me...
hey, I've been researching on Joseph Stalin and found two pictures and edited them to make a creepy effect. Woah!!! Ghost!!!! Lol! I think it's totally creepy/awesome!
~Ember Iceblade
So... I am part of this one church group that has the adult women play volleyball every Wednesday(WTF?!?! is that how it is spelled? stupid spell check...). Well, I have been enjoying playing with them because unlike the kids my age the ladies just play for fun and not who wins or loses. Guess what just happened? Yeah, that's right... I got kicked off because they don't want 18 yr old who are still in high school to play.
Ouch... Who did I spike in the face for them to get pissed off like this? Anyway, we went and checked the rules and it is in there that I am not allowed to play with the adults... There goes my activity... This always happens to me though... Like, I will just get comfortable doing something and then it gets taken away from me...
hey, I've been researching on Joseph Stalin and found two pictures and edited them to make a creepy effect. Woah!!! Ghost!!!! Lol! I think it's totally creepy/awesome!
~Ember Iceblade
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Stormy Weather
Hello anyone who might be reading this... Congratulations, you are one of the few to notice this blog. I am Ember, some know me as Sapphire or if you have known me recently I am almost non-existent. I am a senior in high school and now I have found that being 18 matters to no one, especially if you are still in school. Yes, this means that I'm just your everyday kid, just a kid who doesn't get noticed.
With that being said I've been having a terrible year so far. In January, a week before my birthday I got onto Facebook to check my wall when I noticed in my news feed that my boyfriends relationship status had changed. It had went from 'In a Relationship' to 'Complicated' and in checking the comments I found a conversation between he and his sister about it. Of course it had to do with me, how I was apparently causing him pain.
Seeing him online I decided to ask him if he was okay and it took him a few minutes to answer "Sure.... I guess...." things then got to the point where I asked him to call me or come over and he said no and that he didn't want to see me anymore. He told me that I am the cause of all of his pain... I tried calling so that I could at least hear him say it himself to make sure his dad wasn't screwing around. No Answer. I then get a nasty IM from him saying that he didn't want to talk to me. a few hours later he called and told me that he wanted his stuff back, then after a big argument he asked if we could still be friends. Not knowing what to say I told him that I had to go. Am I a bad person for not going on a date with my boyfriend every other day?
Then I found out like a week ago that he has been dating my best friend since November. I haven't really talked to anyone about the whole ordeal, most I've said is that him and I broke up. I think at this point I'm avoiding being in a relationship with anyone... I'm just a nobody that everyone ignores.
BTW, If you are actually reading to this point then you must be really bored.
P.S. Are you ready for the Zombie invasion?
~Ember Iceblade
With that being said I've been having a terrible year so far. In January, a week before my birthday I got onto Facebook to check my wall when I noticed in my news feed that my boyfriends relationship status had changed. It had went from 'In a Relationship' to 'Complicated' and in checking the comments I found a conversation between he and his sister about it. Of course it had to do with me, how I was apparently causing him pain.
Seeing him online I decided to ask him if he was okay and it took him a few minutes to answer "Sure.... I guess...." things then got to the point where I asked him to call me or come over and he said no and that he didn't want to see me anymore. He told me that I am the cause of all of his pain... I tried calling so that I could at least hear him say it himself to make sure his dad wasn't screwing around. No Answer. I then get a nasty IM from him saying that he didn't want to talk to me. a few hours later he called and told me that he wanted his stuff back, then after a big argument he asked if we could still be friends. Not knowing what to say I told him that I had to go. Am I a bad person for not going on a date with my boyfriend every other day?
Then I found out like a week ago that he has been dating my best friend since November. I haven't really talked to anyone about the whole ordeal, most I've said is that him and I broke up. I think at this point I'm avoiding being in a relationship with anyone... I'm just a nobody that everyone ignores.
BTW, If you are actually reading to this point then you must be really bored.
P.S. Are you ready for the Zombie invasion?
~Ember Iceblade
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